Also, the puzzling I already expressed about her coming to me (twice) within less than a month after I left and how that was like something from a different universe can only be sufficiently answered in connection with the action of saying that thing about me. I remember thinking about how much who see her near my door like that could be inclined to think of my leaving as some kind of a development or intensifying of the situation and would be light-years away from taking into account how much I was a done deal there and that is not even an issue. And as if how her coming was not enough unfit with regard to my relationship with them, it is also, as I mentioned in POST 1004 , unfit with the position she very confidently expresses for herself about her reaction to leaving in general.
But despite that I already saw it as related to her wanting to say that thing about me, I had not felt ready to maintain such position until I knew how to fit that action with the big picture. The fit is that she came to see if she became free to say that thing about me. This connects to how I used to hear her use a strong common expression for finishing things in one direction. That in turn fit with all what I mentioned about her expressing being conflicted about my existence. Connecting the second link here on its own to the third never occurred to me before noticing this intermediate position.
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