1051: MS&R - 44

 In addition to Arabic and Turkish, Person2 also knows Persian to the level that you can hear her sound very normally engaged in conversation with a native speaker. I had never heard about any effort put to teach her that. She appears to have just picked it from person1 who himself picked it because his father worked in a religious site visited by people from other countries including Iran. That was before my birth. Afterwards, on the other hand, hours and hours were spent for years and years in teaching person2 this language for barely any result. She looked like internally shutting herself down not to allow entry for the knowledge she was receiving. She kept explaining that situation saying "Knowledge during the early age is like engraving in the stone" (An Arabic adage). It had many times entered my mind that her saying of that  is connected to me but I disregarded it as far fetched. But one day she said it and looked at me while smiling and even though there was no teaching lesson going on. This is special in indicating how much all the existence discounting pressure I had was part of a plan they were deeply aware of.  

There is also a similar incident I experienced while sitting among them and hearing one of them expressing how he was during an earlier paranoia period. He said "I became suspicious of the closest close to me" and I noticed person3 glanced at me from the corner of his eye. I take what was said as having came from the speaker's assumption for himself of my position there and take the look I got as being to check if I detected any thing about my situation from hearing that. 

But of course all that at the time felt like a barely moving the hair wind blocked by the thick concrete wall of the depth of characters not fitting the reality about themselves they can show.              

1050: Gender Neutral Pronoun For English

Related to POST 1042, while "person" and "human" are masculine, "self" , "soul/spirit", and "character" are feminine, and there are just "he" and "she" pronouns for the singular there (no "it"). While this selection of words also support the incorporation point of that post as the words used there, theses forms are more applicable for referring to the whole target and in that case everybody will be called according to the gender assigned to the form.

I just thought of inserting here another interesting example of the earlier kind of words in my native language. "beauty" is masculine while "strength" is feminine.  

So how much does English need a gender neutral pronoun? I am asking this despite that I can see the "he" pronoun shared between the two genders at the base level of being human, and even thought about using "he-female/woman" when I do not need the gender specificity with regard to the issue of the referring. Some people try to balance things out by using the "she" pronoun in some gender neutral referring, but how much that would also counter the view just mentioned? Why have all this headache? How many other things have the same cost benefit as that of the addition of several words or less here for more active recognition to the existence of an entire gender?

But if despite that no gender for none living things exists here, making both categories share the same pronoun(s) is also seen okay here,  then could it be that "it" is all what is need for neutral gender referring? I used to think about this like an upgrade to this pronoun but now I wonder if it was originally intended to be the most comprehensive pronoun and inclusive of the human pronouns rather than just covering the rest. 

Then again even for the latter or similar alternatives one may ask why all this headache when there is a solution as easy and available as the former? And if there going to be such an effort for change why not apply it toward the most expressive solution?

Just checked and found numerous suggestions for a gender neutral pronoun on the internet.  I altered one of the versions and arrived at this which I intend to use it as my default choice: xe (he/she)  xem (him/her) xir (his/her) xirs (his/hers) xemself (himself/herself). The only change I did is for the last one to be driven from the object pronoun, which itself is also something I copied from another version for the "xe" suggested pronoun . Of course I probably would use whatever the world would ultimately favor as the pronoun here. 

1049: MS&R - 43

 While I was baffled by her coming , she on the other hand took the occurring of that thing she said about me without being puzzled and with immediate recognition and detection like someone watching the falling of something he had pushed toward such end. But, like how I do not know what made me suddenly leave my room and tell her that they had arranged a conspiracy on me and then the reaction of the relative who was staying with us at the time countered how what I said appears crazy accusation to me (POST 1000), it was I who chose on an occasion to behave loosely in front of her without knowing why, allowing her to detect that thing. Then I watched her internal conflict about my existence come to the outside like I could have never imagined. First she offered to go back to where I came from and bring me a wife. She had never before offered me that thing with recognition to my existence like she does it to the others. Beside being made on the go and not showing the same level of really wanting to do that, all other makings of such offer had to include that she bring her to me sixteen years old without missing saying that as if it is required by law. On the other hand according to her own admission, she was directed for the youngest girl in the family from which person3 married but she picked the oldest who is only three years younger than him. But for me it was following on that same age thing they had been doing to me to disregard my existence. Then she immediately stopped and it was unbelievable how she looked like switching to an evil character wanting to take advantage of the situation, and such offer have never been repeated again.

Just in case some think that there could have been some special infatuation toward the related person, there was non of that. All what she had indicated that much being against the self as the first aim and she still not only did not feel responsibility for me but took and celebrated the thing for herself.

By the way, one of them had never been seen praying since the late eighties, and for a muslim to do the daily prayer without being noticed by others living with him is probably unheard of even for a duration of just days (and I am being generous here). I am not citing that for itself but because it is supposedly big thing to her. Yet, I heard her sometimes asked about it (probably closer to twenty than ten years since then) and she responded saying like he says he prays, what business we have in that? Actually, I even never heard him or about him that he answers that affirmatively, but instead responds with a challenge saying Do you swear that I do not pray? I myself asked her about that twice and in both times she responded telling me about how she once opened the room door on him and found him in one of the positions related to doing a prayer. Notice how contrary to her effort to watch and detect that thing on me, here she did not even continue the checking to see if he was praying or not, and even though the position she mentioned is not that much associated with only doing a prayer.        

1048: Dates of Posts

 I spoke about this years ago and still every now and then I want to do that again and again. I cannot understand the genius behind offering people places to post, which is something they can do for themselves, but still withhold something as easy but with big benefit as authenticating the date of the posting, which is something they cannot do for themselves. That could have been given as a choice to the user and indicated at  publishing at the level of the whole blog or individual posts. Actually if you think about it, here for example, the other way around sounds meaningless. A user can change all the text  even the title and the date associated with the post remains the same. So, to what that date is supposed to refer? Even user files on a computer have the date of last modification associated with them, so how about posting, which is in the first place about presenting things to others?

1047: Again with those grammar sites.

 Did a google search for "people collective or plural noun" months ago and then did it yesterday and the same quote from THIS same site came stating "People is NOT a collective noun like team or staff. It is a plural noun". So I posted a comment saying that "People" is a collective noun, and every noun that can carry a plural meaning even though that noun is not driven from the singular form is a collective noun. I received a message showing me how my comment would appear if approved and then... you guessed it: My comment was not published. 

I also do not know how to take this author's "like team or staff". Does he mean that "People" is a collective noun but different from those in that aspect? If so then he missed to teach us about his theory of classes for collective nouns. Also, if "People" is not a collective noun then that means it cannot be taken as singular, and if so then how about the word "Peoples"? Or maybe the author also has a theory for classes for the plural? 

This was just about whether "People" is a collective noun or not; I do not care about the examples he gave.      

1046

THIS is how the corruption guy made my Word Pad look like since I posted (then deleted) those image links about 10 days ago. What you see there is supposed to be the text of the post below with the same font (Georgia). I just increased the size for here but the same look appears regardless of font size or type. 

1045: MS&R - 42

 I think that I made a mistake by referring within that context to that she came twice (Actually she came three times and the last one occurred more than a year later).  Person2 probably said that thing about me after just the first visit then did the others to balance things for her image. I think that when she knew that I left she wondered if that means that there is enough severance of connection for her to say that thing about me. So the solution she thought of was to leave expressing that choice to me through accepting or refusing her if she comes. Again the level and clarity of how much I had been already done there and her coolness and confidence toward that do not seem to allow but that she came to me that soon chasing me into finishing the situation, not trying to have herself remedy it.

1044: MS&R - 41

 Had one with knowledge about my story heard from another source what they said about me, I guess the thing that would have probably occurred to the mind of that listener as the worst reaction from them in response to that is to deny the thing or disregard any weight for it in order to escape responsibility. But for them and especially the parent to bring that thing themselves like this sounds unavoidably suggestive of being impowered directly and/or indirectly by psychosis at their mental roots giving them such magical power to disregard reality. By "indirectly" I meant through the capability to show characters living so unimaginably in their own created reality that facts against them would not stand a chance in the eyes of others.  

1043: Google's Ridicules Translation to Arabic

Related to the google's part in the preceding post, it is not just the english letters writing of that word, but I also just listened to the sound provided with it and it is the one related to "man" not "leg" in arabic. But even for the word "man", the sound provided pronounces the arabic equivilant when used without the definite article and when in a grammatical position that requires pronouncing the end of that word according to a version of the little "o" vowel. The word should have been pronounced neutrally at its end, and that is also the best solution to pronounce it in a sentence if one does not want to get involved in what kind of little vowels should be applied to a word in a sentence according to its grammatical position. Doing it upside down, google ignored the little vowels that are original parts of the word, and that led it to be totally wrong in its translation, and then considered one related to the usage of the other word in a sentence. This is the information provided by the biggest search engine to people, seriously?   

1042: Languages With Gender For Things

  You may think that languages where there is no such requirement are better for promoting open rather than group restricted view to existence, but consider this: Every time I hear on TV a girl referring, for fun, to her breasts as "the girls" or a guy to his twins as "the boys" I feel it strange because in my native language the former is masculine while the latter is feminine. Also, the mouth and nose, for example, are masculine, while the eye and ear are feminine. Mustache is masculine while beard is feminine. Hair, skin and womb are all masculine. Arm, hand, feet and leg are all feminine. 

By the way just saw google's writing in english letters the translation of "leg" to arabic as "rajul" which means "man". The one for "leg" is more like "rijl". Both are written the same way in arabic letters if you do not include the little vowels that accompany the letters, which is usually the case for simplicity and easiness.      

1041: MS&R - 40

 Also, the puzzling I already expressed about her coming to me (twice) within less than a month after I left and how that was like something from a different universe can only be sufficiently answered in connection with the action of saying that thing about me. I remember thinking about how much who see her near my door like that could be inclined to think of my leaving as some kind of a development or intensifying of the situation and would be light-years away from taking into account how much I was a done deal there and that is not even an issue. And as if how her coming was not enough unfit with regard to my relationship with them, it is also, as I mentioned in POST 1004 , unfit with the position she very confidently expresses for herself about her reaction to leaving in general.  

But despite that I already saw it as related to her wanting to say that thing about me, I had not felt ready to maintain such position until I knew how to fit that action with the big picture. The fit is that she came to see if she became free to say that thing about me. This connects to how I used to hear her use a strong common expression for finishing things in one direction. That in turn fit with all what I mentioned about her expressing being conflicted about my existence. Connecting the second link here on its own to the third never occurred to me before noticing this intermediate position.  

1040: MS&R - 39

Imagine a mother choosing to keep her eyes for years on something like what they said about me and does not care about correcting anything in her behaviour toward that son even though she herself arranged for such conspiracy with effects of being ignored discounted and disregarded without knowing why like the one in which I was submerged from initial existence. Even if we make the beyond ridicules assumption that what they did to me offered me valid existence, how about feeling the guilt related to replacing the better with the less especially with regard to such a related issue as what they said about me? But that is still not mine. Person2 did not just ignore it and pass on. No, she kept holding on to it from the earlier years then spread it out within a month after I left them. And then, showing how deeply rooted in them their position against me, the same end to that years spanning behaviour was repeated ten years later.

A would be Everest left from point zero in its existence to the hands of such people doing what they want to him under the controlled access of that conspiracy and the darkness of that hiding may deserve a complement for finding himself enough to be just a speed bump.        

1039: Beyond Donuts

 Related to food and in addition to the difference in fruit variety I mentioned before, it also seems like when it comes to sweets there is a significant difference between pastry varieties where I came from in comparison with here. Actually based on what I have found so far after living here for thirty years, one probably could say there is no comparison. I wish to take someone from here (preferably a police man) with me to a professional pastry shop there and see if he can say that  donuts here are not very much overrated. Although it is probably the other way around when it comes to cake, and pies were not known to me before coming here. Speaking about cake here, there is also the difference of no such level of sweetness there, and in general quality made sweets are less sweet.  

By the way, a little after arriving here someone invited those I came with including me to a dinner at what appeared to be a good quality Greek restaurant where for the sweet I was happy to find that they also offer baklawa/baklava. However when it came I was surprised by (in addition to violating the United Nations by making it with honey) how its quality is like that sold by cart venders in the streets where I came from not the professional shops, and the price in the latter can be more than four times that of the former.