1064

 I prefer to take the risk of being less of a sugar coater than the risk of adding to the number of people who while being in the midst of a big bad pretend act like every thing is okay, so let me say it frankly: The story of that apple variety screams very unpleasant and hard to believe deep and horrible discrimination.   

1063: MS&R - 49

 Related to the preceding post of this series let me put it this way: Anyone thinks in xemself that xe can naturally sense deep enough in people to the kind of deception that was applied on me is almost certainly not getting what I am talking about. Actually, ironically, the more one is good in that with most other people, the more the resulted confidence would put xem in even weaker position with such exceptions. It may appear that if there is no external consequence then having one build and live in xir own world of counter reality should be something anyone can do. But that is not the case when doing that involves leaving no traces for reality to the level I am trying to convey here. Even just internal reality is like gravity to the normal person. No matter from how high one could be in the air, gravity would bring xem down. But when there is psychosis at the root, which is what I explain with such exceptions, then there would be a flying ability involved not just jumping. And while the requirement to repeat or continuously apply (especially like that which my story implies) such misrepresentations may weaken the normal person, doers with psychosis at their roots get strengthened more by that. That is because, like riding a time machine, already occurred truth and facts to them are like anything out there in that they can be replaced with the application of sufficient power toward the change. Therefore by as much as they do that misrepresentation as much as they would be in better position through the increased canceling of that reality.  

1062: Here Versus There

The speaking about corruption, which I often do here, can be  very misleading in places like where I came from if taken according to the environment there not here. One of the biggest tests for morality is to have and maintain a democratic system. But that itself also may not be without price. I am not referring here to just that corruption has much more opportunity to exist in such systems than in dictatorships where everything is forced to go the way the government want, but also to a very special psychological factor. Group ego may gradually get very much developed to replace individual ego as a compromised solution between desires of the self and the morality required to maintain a democratic system. This is like a totally different world to persons who are accustomed to undemocratic environments. Freud has a book or collection of articles titled "Groups and The Psychology of The Ego" and I cannot believe now how then I used to look at that title and wonder what could be the connection. So in places like where I came from the separation in actions and persons between the good and the bad is much more distinct and there are much less ego unity games like here. Carrying the group ego on the individual ego like this and the new paths of satisfaction resulting from the expanded horizon and also the more distant and therefore weaker path for that satisfaction are all factors explaining the incomparable level of group talk sensitivity between here and there. But probably the worst consequence of this group ego situation is the joke justice systems here because of how they are built top down rather than bottom up and trample the individual for the sake of the group, rather than make xem the root. Killers get sentenced to just 20 and 25 or even less. Doers of this may take that as being good to others while not realizing that they are much more probably serving themselves through the shared ego group. Yesterday I watched a video about someone criticizing  what seemed to be celebration for the execution of Ted Bundy and says things like taking human life is big thing. What about the numerous lives he took? Only here one can here nonsensical talk like this, and the only explanation to it is that group ego thing. Then watched news telling that appeal to the Supreme Court to stay the execution of even such a serial killer was rejected by a margin of only one vote.     

         

1061

 305: The Danger of Living With No Masks

 Since masks became not required in stores every time I go shopping I have to step over bodies of dead people? See what was done here?! (LOL).  

Although after very long procrastination, I also want to point out by the way that the people whom I before switching position criticized for things like making covid19 parties could have recognized the reality about what was going on before me.

1060

 Just in case something I am doing appears suggesting otherwise, I am emphasizing again that nothing has changed in my position HERE.

1059 What is going on with the name of that apple variety?

 Why is it that often called "Stayman-Winesap"? Why should "Winesap" be part of the name? How many other apple cultivars have what they came from attached to their name? Knowing that because of its being more the result of intentional development than chance discovery should not take away how much it deserves to be considered a type on its own at the same standard applied to others. And how about the name confusion this can lead to? How many there may call this just "Winesap"? Yesterday I found about what seems to be a cultivar of apple that is the result of crossing the two types above. Imagine the name confusion there? (Crossing such cultivar while we do not even see it in the stores? Never mind, it is a place where fruit is evaluated based on its crunchiness). 

The negative reaction this man got because of the achievement he made is real head scratcher.       

1058: MS&R - 48

 Although it may look considered, I think that my claim for the kind of character deception I lived surrounded with may not be even received by the majority of people, because of how much it is out of the normal perception domain as possible. We depend very intensely on the internal view of a person to itself with regard to the morality of its own actions, and doing that here makes the mind keep kicking away like a knee reflex the thoughts countering the presented character, and refuses that someone can lie to xemself with such depth.   

1057: Grocery Stores Fake Apples

Related to post 1054, I went there because it is the only store that sells serious ravioli (Pasta Prima). I wish I can say the same for apples, in the land of apples, for the real apples, the Stayman brand, and get saved from all the fake apples in the grocery stores. 

I of course knew about that brand because a grocery store brought it. But then apparently this corruption guy made them no longer carry it. Then I travelled to various stores of the same market chain around the town looking for it (Although that was also because I wanted this guy to task himself for his corruption with more than just to cut it out of just the store near me. The thought that he could have contacted those stores to remove this item during that travelling of mine was the first thing that made me seriously consider that he could have a tracking device in my car). I do not think it has been available anywhere here since years ago. 

Again, I see the other apple brands in the grocery markets as tasteless or very far behind in comparison with this one, and I cannot bring myself to believe that others here honestly differ in their tastes like that from this. Every time I go to a grocery store and look at the apples section I wonder about what kind of denial could be here that something I honestly see that much better is not even included with the rest, let alone replacing the rest? 

Just had one Granny Smith apple with torturing tartness that brought on this ranting. 

Even through just describing the taste, how many other apple brands were described as having spiciness in their tastes? 

1056: MS&R - 47

It was not as if they cut me from the world like a prisoner who just cannot reach the outside seen from behind the bars, but more like a person who does not even know that there is a world beyond the all-walls surrounding environment in order to have hope for reaching it.  

1055: MS&R - 46

 I wonder how many do sufficiently consider how much the existence cancelation that was done to me can present  something like what was said about me as a question of knowing or not knowing the wrong or appreciating how much it is wrong rather than a question of interest, and I could have made this point even had this thing been not even close to loose behaviour and not engaging other persons as it was. Yes, I would have not been able to make this point had what they said been about bad things done to others, because in that case all the knowledge I need is the fact that I should not do to others what I do not accept being done to me. 

1054

 Hey, corruption crap, was requiring me to enter my own credit card data when I went to get a Costco card something required from every customer or just something you wanted imposed on me and they did that for you? You are not even tasking yourself to think at the moment for these things. You watched the search I did on my computer the earlier day for something I want to buy from there. And of course that is in addition to the preparation the tracking device I think you have in my car gives you.  

1053: Another Reminder About Other Defrauded People

Although I have included with dealing for the first case I filed to the Supreme Court, dealing with the case related to the story of the stock which one day I bought more than two millions of its shares from this corruption guy and then the price made huge jumps and then went down during THIS and THIS and THIS  and THIS suspicious sec filings (read the "Explanation of Responses"), this corruption guy still need to compensate whatever defrauding occurred to others of whom probably many, unlike me, lost money they put from outside into the stock. 

1052: MS&R - 45

An insufficiently accurate translation for that Arabic saying could have confused the point in the preceding post. It would have been better as "The knowledge at the littleness (of age) is like the engraving in the stone". 

1051: MS&R - 44

 In addition to Arabic and Turkish, Person2 also knows Persian to the level that you can hear her sound very normally engaged in conversation with a native speaker. I had never heard about any effort put to teach her that. She appears to have just picked it from person1 who himself picked it because his father worked in a religious site visited by people from other countries including Iran. That was before my birth. Afterwards, on the other hand, hours and hours were spent for years and years in teaching person2 this language for barely any result. She looked like internally shutting herself down not to allow entry for the knowledge she was receiving. She kept explaining that situation saying "Knowledge during the early age is like engraving in the stone" (An Arabic adage). It had many times entered my mind that her saying of that  is connected to me but I disregarded it as far fetched. But one day she said it and looked at me while smiling and even though there was no teaching lesson going on. This is special in indicating how much all the existence discounting pressure I had was part of a plan they were deeply aware of.  

There is also a similar incident I experienced while sitting among them and hearing one of them expressing how he was during an earlier paranoia period. He said "I became suspicious of the closest close to me" and I noticed person3 glanced at me from the corner of his eye. I take what was said as having came from the speaker's assumption for himself of my position there and take the look I got as being to check if I detected any thing about my situation from hearing that. 

But of course all that at the time felt like a barely moving the hair wind blocked by the thick concrete wall of the depth of characters not fitting the reality about themselves they can show.              

1050: Gender Neutral Pronoun For English

Related to POST 1042, while "person" and "human" are masculine, "self" , "soul/spirit", and "character" are feminine, and there are just "he" and "she" pronouns for the singular there (no "it"). While this selection of words also support the incorporation point of that post as the words used there, theses forms are more applicable for referring to the whole target and in that case everybody will be called according to the gender assigned to the form.

I just thought of inserting here another interesting example of the earlier kind of words in my native language. "beauty" is masculine while "strength" is feminine.  

So how much does English need a gender neutral pronoun? I am asking this despite that I can see the "he" pronoun shared between the two genders at the base level of being human, and even thought about using "he-female/woman" when I do not need the gender specificity with regard to the issue of the referring. Some people try to balance things out by using the "she" pronoun in some gender neutral referring, but how much that would also counter the view just mentioned? Why have all this headache? How many other things have the same cost benefit as that of the addition of several words or less here for more active recognition to the existence of an entire gender?

But if despite that no gender for none living things exists here, making both categories share the same pronoun(s) is also seen okay here,  then could it be that "it" is all what is need for neutral gender referring? I used to think about this like an upgrade to this pronoun but now I wonder if it was originally intended to be the most comprehensive pronoun and inclusive of the human pronouns rather than just covering the rest. 

Then again even for the latter or similar alternatives one may ask why all this headache when there is a solution as easy and available as the former? And if there going to be such an effort for change why not apply it toward the most expressive solution?

Just checked and found numerous suggestions for a gender neutral pronoun on the internet.  I altered one of the versions and arrived at this which I intend to use it as my default choice: xe (he/she)  xem (him/her) xir (his/her) xirs (his/hers) xemself (himself/herself). The only change I did is for the last one to be driven from the object pronoun, which itself is also something I copied from another version for the "xe" suggested pronoun . Of course I probably would use whatever the world would ultimately favor as the pronoun here. 

1049: MS&R - 43

 While I was baffled by her coming , she on the other hand took the occurring of that thing she said about me without being puzzled and with immediate recognition and detection like someone watching the falling of something he had pushed toward such end. But, like how I do not know what made me suddenly leave my room and tell her that they had arranged a conspiracy on me and then the reaction of the relative who was staying with us at the time countered how what I said appears crazy accusation to me (POST 1000), it was I who chose on an occasion to behave loosely in front of her without knowing why, allowing her to detect that thing. Then I watched her internal conflict about my existence come to the outside like I could have never imagined. First she offered to go back to where I came from and bring me a wife. She had never before offered me that thing with recognition to my existence like she does it to the others. Beside being made on the go and not showing the same level of really wanting to do that, all other makings of such offer had to include that she bring her to me sixteen years old without missing saying that as if it is required by law. On the other hand according to her own admission, she was directed for the youngest girl in the family from which person3 married but she picked the oldest who is only three years younger than him. But for me it was following on that same age thing they had been doing to me to disregard my existence. Then she immediately stopped and it was unbelievable how she looked like switching to an evil character wanting to take advantage of the situation, and such offer have never been repeated again.

Just in case some think that there could have been some special infatuation toward the related person, there was non of that. All what she had indicated that much being against the self as the first aim and she still not only did not feel responsibility for me but took and celebrated the thing for herself.

By the way, one of them had never been seen praying since the late eighties, and for a muslim to do the daily prayer without being noticed by others living with him is probably unheard of even for a duration of just days (and I am being generous here). I am not citing that for itself but because it is supposedly big thing to her. Yet, I heard her sometimes asked about it (probably closer to twenty than ten years since then) and she responded saying like he says he prays, what business we have in that? Actually, I even never heard him or about him that he answers that affirmatively, but instead responds with a challenge saying Do you swear that I do not pray? I myself asked her about that twice and in both times she responded telling me about how she once opened the room door on him and found him in one of the positions related to doing a prayer. Notice how contrary to her effort to watch and detect that thing on me, here she did not even continue the checking to see if he was praying or not, and even though the position she mentioned is not that much associated with only doing a prayer.        

1048: Dates of Posts

 I spoke about this years ago and still every now and then I want to do that again and again. I cannot understand the genius behind offering people places to post, which is something they can do for themselves, but still withhold something as easy but with big benefit as authenticating the date of the posting, which is something they cannot do for themselves. That could have been given as a choice to the user and indicated at  publishing at the level of the whole blog or individual posts. Actually if you think about it, here for example, the other way around sounds meaningless. A user can change all the text  even the title and the date associated with the post remains the same. So, to what that date is supposed to refer? Even user files on a computer have the date of last modification associated with them, so how about posting, which is in the first place about presenting things to others?

1047: Again with those grammar sites.

 Did a google search for "people collective or plural noun" months ago and then did it yesterday and the same quote from THIS same site came stating "People is NOT a collective noun like team or staff. It is a plural noun". So I posted a comment saying that "People" is a collective noun, and every noun that can carry a plural meaning even though that noun is not driven from the singular form is a collective noun. I received a message showing me how my comment would appear if approved and then... you guessed it: My comment was not published. 

I also do not know how to take this author's "like team or staff". Does he mean that "People" is a collective noun but different from those in that aspect? If so then he missed to teach us about his theory of classes for collective nouns. Also, if "People" is not a collective noun then that means it cannot be taken as singular, and if so then how about the word "Peoples"? Or maybe the author also has a theory for classes for the plural? 

This was just about whether "People" is a collective noun or not; I do not care about the examples he gave.      

1046

THIS is how the corruption guy made my Word Pad look like since I posted (then deleted) those image links about 10 days ago. What you see there is supposed to be the text of the post below with the same font (Georgia). I just increased the size for here but the same look appears regardless of font size or type. 

1045: MS&R - 42

 I think that I made a mistake by referring within that context to that she came twice (Actually she came three times and the last one occurred more than a year later).  Person2 probably said that thing about me after just the first visit then did the others to balance things for her image. I think that when she knew that I left she wondered if that means that there is enough severance of connection for her to say that thing about me. So the solution she thought of was to leave expressing that choice to me through accepting or refusing her if she comes. Again the level and clarity of how much I had been already done there and her coolness and confidence toward that do not seem to allow but that she came to me that soon chasing me into finishing the situation, not trying to have herself remedy it.