997

 I want to point out that HERE I was referring to only the power I have to exist what I have chosen for myself. It does not include the time related to others afterwards.    

996: MS&R - 16

What I said in POST 991 that they told me that I had saliva coming out from the corner of my mouth was unnoticeably added by me thinking that is what they meant. They never mentioned saliva or the corner of the mouth. Instead, a better translation should have been to say that they said I had the froth or foam coming out of my mouth. I just realized this yesterday watching a TV drama emergency scene and realized how they could have similarly intended to express the emergency here.   

995: MS&R - 15

 Speaking about the depth of that conspiracy, I cannot count how many times I have heard person1 saying as if addressing the rest from far Your (using the plural pronoun) secret is a very buried secret, without me being able to see any thing related to the situation and deserves to be called a "secret". And often that gets said with very minor agitations. Now I take that also through the theory I made in POST 985 in connection with that aunt.  Person1 also had it like a habit that when he wants to criticize others for failing to carry out a task that involves interacting with other people, as he liked that to be, to do that in the form of asking the person if doing that would have made the other people steal (or take) your face.

994: MS&R - 14

If the story in post 991 sounded hard to reconcile with my position then let me add these two others. First let me tell you this story. For some period person3 had a small apartment in Baghdad and in which he also was doing private medical practice and accepting patients. One day I was told to go with person4 to repair a banner or sign for that which was in the street just under that apartment (which was in the second floor). While we were there suddenly a vehicle of military police or some other government group with their uniform and machineguns stopped and asked us for identifications. Person4 was able to show his but I could not because it was up there in the apartment (Although I have very high probability that I wanted to carry it with me but was told that I do not need that). So they wanted to take me with them and I was going along with that but person4 kept not just arguing but also somewhat raising his voice against them which is something far from being expected for anyone to do against government forces there. With voices being that high person2 looked from the balcony then came down with my identification card. 

The second thing I want to mention here is that I, just like  person2, 4, 5, 6  came to this country in 1992 from our refugee camp in Saudi Arabia because of an opportunity that came to person3 to come here and he included the rest.

While facts like these by themselves point to the opposing direction, they can also show how deeply I had to dig to reach the level of that conspiracy at the root. You think that I kept arguing for being very far from deserving that that thing they said about me be really counted on me because I lacked the will to stand and admit facts about a past that was that far from harming others? And the burden of taking into consideration facts like these for the opposite side is a joke in comparison with the difficulty of seeing through that thing I keep mentioning about the capability they have to internally take facts about their actions as if they are not there. They do that so will that one would feel he is like buying a seat for himself in hell because of how making the negative suspicion sounds unnatural and superimposed.

993: MS&R - 13

Actually, even if I were to assume that the sickness to which I referred in the earlier post was dealt with properly from its early stages (and also could not have been avoided with sufficient care) but still needed that emergency trip and effort, I would still have taken a position that is very significantly in the same direction as this one, because of what have been done to me throughout my life later.  After all I already know that even with perfect health I, like every other human being, would not have survived as  infant without somebody taking care of me.

992: MS&R - 12

 Readers taking the preceding post for the other side may get  additional push toward there when they know that on some occasions person2 mentioned that she was even barefoot there. 

991: MS&R - 11

 One special story in suggesting how my existence was fought as hardly as it can be fought without crossing the boundary of physical annihilation is of that sever sickness I had as infant at the age of three weeks. It is the story person2 kept telling me about herself running while carrying me in the streets of Baghdad to get me to a hospital then there I had to get twenty seven needle injection in order to be saved. It was told to me and referring was made to it countless number of times. They say I had saliva coming out of the corner of my mouth because of how close to dying I came. However, the story never expanded beyond that sudden emergency trip to Baghdad. Despite all that repetition and referring, not even once, I heard anything about how my sickness developed or what was done to treat it at its earlier stages. One can see how this suggests that the decision to save me came that late because of how much there was inclination to take advantage of that sickness and let me die. And one can also see how this fits that the decision did not go beyond the bare minimum of existence and what extends beyond that was targeted later through that conspiracy and the environment surrounding me. Actually, person2 herself also used to often refer back to that situation suggesting it being a missed opportunity in that regard. I also have heard her more than once making a similar reference to how she could have put a poison in my food. And although she of course did all that with an attitude in which she was not showing complete seriousness, I have no problem taking it with the telling and repetition I heard of that story according to the theory I put in POST 985  in connection with the actions of that aunt of mine.     

990:

 I am affirming here that I am still on the position I declared HERE.