Before I begin let me set this: I am going to call those I lived with person1 to person6 starting from my father and arranged according to the date of birth (father, mother, brothers).
Living in the eye of psychosis like this, I of course have things to cite but there is one special occurrence that went beyond showing intensity of feelings to fighting reality or at least more noticeably so in comparison to others. One time after person6 was arrested for spreading anti government leaflets person3 told me in a fighting or blaming tone that person6 went to prison because of me. I was eight or nine at the time and took that as a reference related to living together so responded telling person3, who was nineteen or twenty at the time, that it is him or he also used to fight with that other brother, and saw person2 smiling with hearing that response.
This uncontrolled direct blaming to someone for something that is as naturally part of him as if it is something he did slipped out despite the internal wiping out like being disinfected from my own self they were doing to me.
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