973: That Constitutional Discrimination

 Is there a reason for the continued existence of the ineligibility of naturalized citizens to the precedency position, in the constitution? This country is far from being that new place in the world and therefore need some thing like this to be recognized as a state on its own. Also, the overwhelming majority of people with voting rights here are born in this country and they would still be able to choose refusing a person based on being not born here if they want. But the issue here is with the stigmatizing of that constitutional exclusion. Even for just my own sake if I were on the other side here I would still question discoloring with something that is not even serving a practical purpose, like this, the purity of the equality shown with all other eligibilities.         

972: MS&R +6

It was very common and not counted as bad thing when it comes to taking care of me as a child, to hear person2 says I raised three sons like someone justifying his retirement after having done the required service.  I also cannot count how many times I heard her when one of my aunts talks about how something may relate to me or my prospect makes the uncalled for declaration of her carelessness about me saying something to the effect of Eih, poor woman, what have I gotten from the big ones so that now it is the turn for the little ones? And for whatever that may require something to be done, when there is one, on her part it was not like someone was pressuring or even just keeping an eye on whether she does it or not. Although, what could be even a bigger sign here for the destruction to my existence is how I myself could not make an internal stand for myself to see the saying of those things as unacceptable as it is. 

It was not just words. What was cited here is also supported with actions suggesting very strongly that my existence in life was taken like an occurrence in a trip; one only need to tolerate it to make it pass rather than really acknowledge it and account for it.   

I was also directly fought tooth and nail using my being the youngest as an excuse, by them against having real existence. It was as if I got to life on the last available entry slot before the passing of time stops, and therefore I must have only minimum existence till otherwise. It was all what I can see and breathe. It is so deeply hammered into me that to this day I cannot see myself but that way. And I bet on the same from them toward me even at this age. 

They could have targeted my psychological existence as much as they wanted without preventing me from knowing, at least through the free reaction to my existence by others, the existence of that thing they were hiding and have a chance to see it as the reason so that I have a chance to stand for myself. But no, I must be pushed down without having something to which I can hang on. They did not insist on that conspiracy for nothing. And although from the view of my current position I may call things they did to me as "pushing" and "pressuring", back then, in the eyes of someone lacking knowing the reason or the existence of something that could fit as the reason, and in addition to that that person was to be built from the root of his existence in life, how far this "pushing" and "pressuring" could have been from "informing"?    

971

 Just thinking, what if we give Florida to Cuba for its corrupt prosecution with regard to the blood of Trayvon Martin, and designate Colorado as nuclear explosion testing place for its corrupt prosecution with regard to the blood of Jon Bennett?    

970: MS&R +5

Before I begin let me set this: I am going to call those I lived with person1 to person6 starting from my father and arranged according to the date of birth (father, mother, brothers).         

Living in the eye of psychosis like this, I of course have things to cite but there is one special occurrence that went beyond showing intensity of feelings to fighting reality or at least more noticeably so in comparison to others. One time after person6 was arrested for spreading anti government leaflets person3 told me in a fighting or blaming tone that person6 went to prison because of me. I was eight or nine at the time and took that as a reference related to living together so responded telling person3, who was nineteen or twenty at the time, that it is him or he also used to fight with that other brother, and saw person2 smiling with hearing that response. 

This uncontrolled direct blaming to someone for  something that is as naturally part of him as if it is something he did slipped out despite the internal wiping out like being disinfected from my own self they were doing to me.

969: MS&R +4

 On the other hand, although not counting something as real is not similarly applicable when it comes to badly affecting others, what they did to me was not only rooted at a serious aim but a very indispensable one as well. It has always sounded with them as if accepting my real existence is not even an option for consideration. But their apparent sanity and conformity to life was carried on destructing the internal constitution of, again, yours truly here.          

968: Again That Same Very Irritating Requirement

 After several years since I tried to look into my health care choices through healthcare.gov, I have just tried it again and again faced the requirement to submit certificate of citizenship as proof for being a citizen. Is this for real? The federal government cannot find in its records if someone is really a citizen, based on the name and social security of that person? After all this time thinking that unlike where one came from, here the existence of a person is not dependent on that person's keeping of a piece of paper, suddenly things reverse in this horrible way and for something that, unlike the social security number, one never told to memorize it or even take care of it. I also have never been asked to supply this document or any information from it ever before, and never occurred to me that I may, and I would be surprised if even very negligible percentage of naturalized citizens would report different experience. How could it be that we are not living at the stone age if the federal government is really that incompetent? Or is it that it chose to be this incompetent here?

 (Note: I did not write this because this requirement makes me miss something. I do have that document in some storage closet I have, and there should be ample time to find it between here and April 12, the deadline for submitting it, if I want to apply).