.. to accept staying in this situation, and therefore I am back to declaring that what I want is for this matter with the corruption guy to end as soon as possible (weekends and holidays included) according to the offer I made him. This want is now in the form of a preference but may get upgraded to a right based demand at any point I find that I have that right. And frankly speaking, how many people have already decided or are struggling not to see that the other side had already failed to carry its part of the deal, let alone seeing that what was done was the best choice or even a good choice, or that it was really done for me. Looking at this, an outsider could conclude that the other side had no real intention for doing its part, or with believing the other way around, that outsider could laugh the sucks off (as they say) on the notion that despite having such alternative, a person is being burdened more like this in order to be compensated more for the same burden. I had all those years riding on how this end would be dealt with and it failed me.
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You can end this today at the offer, but you keep it to end tomorrow for a trillion more? I, still, would count that on you rather than for you. Although throwing numbers in this manner might make an outsider assume that I am light years away from such lacking of tangible acknowledgments.
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(Added March 30-31, 2024)
Incase it is thought otherwise, the above does not take away anything from post 1095
And although the physical and material effect was part of the above, I wouldn't have written it just because of them. I still can get into thoughts and researches I want to do that can make me think it is still April in June. And this is not to fill time but for what I on my own very much want to do.
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Okay, I just realized that I have been for the past couple of months here applying morality at an exaggerated level that can stop the world if replicated by everybody. Even assuming the time here belongs to me but the other side wants it, it is good enough for me to consider only the effect of that on me, and it is none of my business how it gets used. So, I no longer maintain the positions I declared above with regard to the request I made at the beginning and that "trillion" dollars example I gave later.
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I applied the thinking above to the issue of differentiating between if waiting for the corruption guy here is my choice versus if it is the result of accepting that the judges take some additional time and they decided to keep that waiting. Earlier, I considered deciding this issue as part of dealing with the judges, but now I accept considering it as isolated from me by the judges. And again this is with the assumption that I have the right to that time.
Also, the reference to the "physical and material effect" in the preceding paragraph includes the effect of being in such lacking of tangible assurances, and it is the hardest part on me. It is not like I am here waiting for the date of a promissory note I am holding in my hand. I have been kept in this status since May of 2015 (after the denial of my petition), and this additional challenge is occurring within that same lacking and builds on the immaterializing of the preceding one.
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(Added April 1, 2024)
I am okay with taking up to June 30 to end this, but I still do not feel like I can work or do anything unless I follow that nagging thing inside calling on me to refuse anything above the offer. If I still get that I could send all of it to the IRS (and still pay the tax on the offer).
Many times before the potential of this addition comes I have thought about how it would be good to refuse an amount equal to the offer in order to counter how this guy kept acting as if because of the amount of the offer he bought the right to do bad things to me. And here it is the opportunity to do that presenting itself to me.
However, as if I was not offered this addition here, I still may sue the guy for anything else if I want to.
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The way things expressed above still leave a chance for doing otherwise. So, I am declaring here that I refuse to accept any amount above the offer and if I receive such amount I would either send some of it back to the sender (For example whoever issued the check) and send the rest to the IRS, or send it all to the IRS. And I will still pay the tax on the offer as if I did not pay any of that to the IRS.
If I choose the second option above I would also try to prevent the IRS from counting that amount for any other tax I would owe, and would send any related check back to them or seek another way to refuse it.
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By as much as I would have gotten that addition had I not refused it, my refusal works better for the purpose I mentioned above. However, I am not willing to go beyond June 30 for that.
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(Added April 2-3, 2024)
On second thought, being this close to having that addition (and especially with my history) is good enough for that refusal wish I mentioned above, and now , rather than what that last paragraph above suggests, my priority goes to ending this situation at the offer as soon as possible. This path is better for countering any potential waiting for me to reverse that refusal.
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Just like how I complain and criticize, it is good to acknowledge the positive, especially those two elephants in the room positives. First, going along with my offering despite how big the amount it requires, and without requiring me to counter any argument assigning what I complained of as injury to the system not me. Then came the doubling of that with the empowerment to do this refusal and how much it can make me tell the corruption guy you owe me and I do not owe you. This is huge and taking this path is something I have been trying to push down and prevent from surfacing, not plan B.
It may be hard to believe, but, again, before its potential here, I used to think about having the capability to take double the offer, not so that I take both, but so that I take one and use the refusal of the other to counter how the guy positioned himself here in his actions toward me.
This refusal expires as soon as the matter goes out of the judges hands.
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The difference between waiting before and waiting after affirming this refusal intention is like waiting while breathing car exhaust versus waiting in a garden.
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The potential reduction to the value of this refusal now makes me switch again and cancel that time priority choice I made earlier, and instead ask that unless there is no doubt in my capability, I should be dealt with exactly as if I have not made that refusal.
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In the past time I wasn't struggling with just whether to accept or refuse this addition but also with whether to act on this refusal before or after receiving such addition. Even though it could be considered abnormal worrying, had I chosen the latter I would have wanted to involve the IRS in order to account for if such action would be considered as owning and giving back rather than returning.
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(Added April 4, 2024)
I would like to add more clarity to the request I made in the paragraph that is preceding the one above. It says the following: Although I refuse any additional amount to the offer, I still want to pass all what I would have been required to pass had I not made this refusal. The purpose of this is to maximize the value of this refusal.
Actually, I want this version to override the earlier.
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(Added April 5, 2024)
I have zero interest in getting through the request above more time to reconsider my refusal decision.
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If the offer and the extra amounts come through separate packages that give me at the delivery point the clear option to accept or refuse, without the total received getting above the offer, receiving the package, then I wouldn't involve the IRS in doing such refusal.
And, again, this refusal expires as soon as the court is no longer involved.
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(Added April 6, 2024)
Seems like I missed big when I chose to maximize the value of the refusal over disassociating myself as much as I can from accepting this situation. Therefore I am switching my choice back to having this situation end as soon as possible, and this is my final choice. Of course I realize that I already gave away any right I could have had to the time until June 30.
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I used to think that the judges can use to balance out obligating the corruption guy to accept my offer the capability to give him a free pass from his obligation according to the bet or challenge related to that additional amount. But this refusal disables that. Therefore, instead of this direct refusal, I transfer to them my capability to receive that additional amount. Again, the end target here is the moral balance.
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I remind and emphasize as strongly as I can that what I want is to exist according to the offer this situation as soon as possible.
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