1087: My New Resolution

 I thought again about my situation: What is it to me to stay like this couple of weeks more? But, it again did not feel right. So, I am declaring here that by as much as I have the right to do so, I refuse to stay for even just one hour more of being contained like this in what others set for me. I am not a toy, and I no longer can tolerate  such manipulation. I have been living in such situation since the denial of my petition, and I no longer can accept the same after all the self convincing efforts I did based on that it is one time exception that would end when I present that argument I was making. I have already done so much of addressing the other side while I myself never directly acknowledged by it, carrying that whole situation on my shoulders,  and I feel very reluctant to do more of that. From now on, the interface presented to me is what counts. 

I also wondered how could someone having existence story like mine accept for himself again taking such a passive position toward such stealing and manipulation of reality? I said "again" taking into account the toying with and degradation to the system that has been going on. But there, I was supposed to be on the other side according to the challenge.

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                                   (Added February 28, 2024)

The focus of the top paragraph above is only on acknowledging  equal existence rather than a contained one for me. No effect of deception is part of that focus.

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                                    (Added March 5-6, 2024)

I have been running away from any sent signal telling me about when things shall materialize here, because I think that is insulting (I have been even avoiding entire tv channels because of that). And the reason to do that for me is even less in the past days after I already hinted at already receiving such signals when I spoke about "couple of weeks" in the top paragraph above, unless "couple" was taken as rigid beyond what it was intended to be, or the purpose of saying that was taken as being for setting a limit. 

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                         (Added March 8, 2024)  

The top paragraph continues to express my sensitivity to the issue, but the demand I made in that paragraph is no longer active.

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