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 Hey corruption shit, again, is it not enough for you to watch everything I do on my computer that you have to mess what I do? You sit there and play being in control of allowing or not allowing an order I make to pass until you want to? As if I would really believe that changing a word in my address from "Ln." to "LANE" made the difference after my payment being refused for no reason? Actually if there were a needed change on that it would have been most probably the other way around because it is the more formal way. Also, did you forget that not far ago I made another order and used the same payment method also with Home Depot with no problem? In addition, you think I did not notice from the early times you practiced it that you may mess a thing I am trying to do then take the opportunity of a far fetched probability I try to solve the problem, to suggest to me it was the issue? 

1000: MS&R - 19

While that was the depth to which they were skinning away my existence, I had not known about them involving other relatives in that task until I was at the age of 37. Such a clearly defined boundary crossing was very much needed to support someone submerged in an environment like that see his situation as really different and far from being like those occurring in any family. Given their super character deception, this of course never occurred as acceptable probability to me before. But in 2008 something different happened. One relative, a woman with her two children, came to live with us for some period. Although she is the grand daughter of the aunt who used to sing that song to me as a child, she is only months younger than me. She lived for a couple or several months in the same house with person2 and me. Person2 used to often leave and go to the house of person3 and stay for the rest of the day or a big part of it there. Every time person2 did that this relative vacuums the house. The connection was unavoidable and even person2 once told her As soon as we leave you start sweeping (In arabic or at least the dialect we speak we also use the equivalent of the verb "sweep" for the vacuum machine which the literal translation of its name there is the "electric sweeper") and that relative of course did not acknowledge the connection. An additional interesting thing here is the use of "we" instead of "I" and how that enables an easier connection to that conspiracy. I saw what that action expresses but to me its target was as unreachable as the moon being stoned from the earth. Anyway, one day I do not know what made me loosen that restriction off myself and throw in that conspiracy accusation. A little later I heard person2 talking to that relative and saying things like crazy, he says we have an arrangement with other relatives against him.  Seeing me entering the kitchen, which is adjacent to the porch where they were sitting, the relative responded saying something like Oh.. notice.. he may hear you, and person2 said let him hear we are fed up with him. The way with which person2 was talking about me as if I am a stranger was hard for me to believe. Anyway, there was no problem with how she looked like someone who sincerely believe her complaint is true. But, to my surprise, that relative, as if she already knew about a real base for my accusations, appeared so unaffected by what she heard, and rather than detecting even a hint of  being seen as paranoid, I felt that I was as approachable to her afterwards as every bit as I was before.