960: Accusation Or Confession?

 Related to what seems to have been recently said about me, the first thing I want to do here is to emphatically negate any suspicion that I kept mostly silent about my story there because they held that thing over my head, even had they had the capability to support that with a video they can make played continuously in Time Square and also available for purchase in CDs. As for how to take what was said, it reminds me of the trick question asked to kids where I came from, about whether a kilo of cotton is heavier than a kilo of iron or the other way around. This is not far behind in how looking at what was presented as a whole can counter being misleadingly impressed by part of it. But first of all let's point out that even assuming what was said here was about a person with no special story associated with it, it would still be much better than what they did, because of being that much about affecting the doer itself rather than other people. Now, lets see how what they threw at me itself reverses back much of the associated responsibility toward them. First, they chose to go there despite how it is neither has anything to do with answering my allegations of their conspiracy and rejection to me, nor to complain about being affected by it (what they said about me). Second, the connectivity imposed by the shared living environment of a family grants an implied expectation of confidentiality on private matters regardless of the level of differences. So given that I did not volunteer telling them what they said about me, was there a reason, not just technically applicable but really worth going against that expectation of confidentiality? Third, even if we assume there was no problem with the unusual way with which they dealt with the issue of my existence, their confidence in that still should not be as if it was done by a laser guided device. So what person with even little moral values would use what they used here to attack me like that rather than being the first one troubled by the question of his potential role in causing that?  Fourth,  once again, even if we go beyond the preceding point itself and assume that what was done to me resulted in having equal existence to others and it is okay to be that much confident about it, how about being troubled about the guilt of taking away the better status associated with that original existence especially with regard to something as related in subject as what they said about me?

Those were the people who played that conspiracy on me with regard to rejecting, not something done or acquired, but an attribute or feature that is part of the person himself. And with that thing being that much in their brains, and that much freedom from morality in their behaviour toward me plus the capability of showing  characters that are as far from suspicion as the ones they are capable of showing, how much one who existed from birth in an environment targeting him like that can avoid having the absence of knowledge about the existence of that conspiracy hidden thing leads him to substitute false view to the self and the world as explanation to the bad or depth lacking behaviour he sees around him?